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If you have a question, I'll be happy to ask the coins using geomancy. That said, divination is like weather forecasting not a tablet of truth handed down from above, so take the advice I give you through the reading as such. The conditions that divination taps into are also in constant flux, the same as atmospheric pressure and the Moon. Be sure to ask questions to which you want to know the answer.
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Date: 2022-11-24 05:08 pm (UTC)2. When I say my divinations don't work, I mean I ask whether or not I should do a thing, a get glowing response and the thing immediately doesn't work.
3. She is a non romantic partner I've lived with for long enough to be something like family.
4. It's true though. I'm on disability, rarely leave my apartment, have lived in a city for seven years where I know no one, shunned social media since its inception, speak to family so rarely they leave no impact, and JMG's various spots are the only places I frequent online where other people are actively talking and I don't participate much myself. Does that qualify me as a recluse? I do hope so, I try ever so hard. :)
Seriously though, the only people I've spoken to other than the one I live with all year are in situations like this, I take up their services seeking help, they do what they can and I never speak to them again. The only person I can think of who might've been pissed enough at me to try something was a long time ago, and I don't think she'd have been capable of much anyway. I don't think it refers to a person, there just isn't anyone.
What exactly does Colled mean? I know nothing about this system of divination.
5. I was thinking things never get finished, rather than finished too fast.
6. Yes, ecosophia. It kind of is the only option. Is it possible that is also creating the crossed condition and conflicted will?
7. Current spiritual practice, right now nothing. Because I don't know what to do or where to point my effort. Compulsively jumping from one pantheon to another for the last few years was just mentally tiring, I recognize that as something not to do. I lost that old anchor point and I don't know where else to go (and can not just choose another pantheon. Literally can not. I perfectly understand why, it's one of those trauma based rewirings that can only be endured for the remainder of this lifetime). I've tried banishing rituals many, many times now. I don't seem to connect well with the SoP and it's far to weak to use deity free; LBRP options require deities, the generic polytheistic one requires a patron.
It's not much now, but bear in mind I tried for years. I threw everything and the kitchen sink into it. Tried multiple directions. It was chaotic and accomplished nothing. I've become aware of the danger of self deception (perhaps too aware, at a certain point how do you know any of it is real?) so I'm trying not to restart that cycle again. Doing nothing doesn't help, but action didn't seem to either.
Apologize for long rambling comment. Thanks again.
A rambling for another rambling
Date: 2022-11-24 07:30 pm (UTC)There seems to be a lot of self-deception to me in your comment. I am going to suggest the usual, just suck it up and do 15 minutes a day of spiritual practice, every single day for a year and don't stop no matter what. If the sky falls, you sit down and do your meditation; if Godzilla bangs at your door, you tell him to shut up and finish your ritual; if you just can't handle it anymore you give yourself a pat on the back for the good work and just finish reading that divination, even if half awake and with your fingers shaking from fear; if Satan presents to you in the middle of prayer, burn him to a crisp in a smokeless-and-ashless bang leaving no trace and just keep on praying. Just think it through very well, write about it, come again for a divination if you need to and then commit to it and do your level best to finish your plan, not for it to be perfect without changing your mind even if it is telling you that everything is wrong. If you fail, you just get up and try again.
1) Fair enough! In that case, I have no idea what Colled or "loss" could mean. Colled means loss in all its forms, from losing money to losing one's heart.
One other thing that I could mention is that spirituality isn't meant to fix one's life or emotional situations or what have you, it certainly can but in fact, many times it actually makes it worse for a while! I tried pushing further about the rest of the reading and the response I got was please just tell him to keep moving, it's movement not anything else, not the right or wrong this or that or the right or wrong ritual. I felt this with some force and seems to me you have a real tangle. This sort of things doesn't happen with spiritually weak people, so you have definitely something going on but I do get the sense that you have to do a lot of undoing. It is common for your experience to happen when one is in the liminal stage between one place and the other and it is as much an initiation as it is a test.
Yes, the hidden thing here is ecosophia, as that is where the Way of Points leads. What that means is that the WoP show cases the hidden forces of a situation. I am going to leave it up to you to figure out how. Let me know what you find out ;-)
For what it is worth I have found reading JMG books and finishing them to connect me way more strongly to the egregor of ecosophia than anything else while skipping the unbalanced parts.
2) Finishing entirely depends on you, if you can't finish things then the problem is not someone's curse, not a deity but you not being able to finish things, plain and simple and it seems the crossed conditions are coming as a response to the world or lack of contact with thereof.
3) I have worked with schizophrenics and one thing they taught me is that if one takes oneself too seriously and just don't start making choices among the opposites in your life and start making sense of the cognitive dissonance and double messages the we give to ourselves and receive from others and the world, it literally feels like your mind is being torn apart in half. The solution is meditation and reflection by taking your inputs and your response to those inputs apart with lots of patience.
Imagine I give you a ball of yarn that is all tangled up. Only two things (ha!) will happen if you start pulling and pushing in a disorganized way, either you make it an impossible to fix knot or you break it in pieces out of desperation. There is no other way, the third option is just that, grab one end and very slowly start pushing it in and out of the tangles until the whole thread is rectified once again.
Osho says this in his version of the Two of Swords, which he calls schizophrenia:
The person on this card brings a new twist to the old idea of "getting stuck between a rock and a hard place"! But we are in precisely this sort of situation when we get stuck in the indecisive and dualistic aspect of the mind. Should I let my arms go and fall head-first, or let my legs go and fall feet-first? Should I go here or there? Should I say yes or no? And whatever decision we make, we will always wonder if we should have decided the other way. The only way out of this dilemma is, unfortunately, to let go of both at once. You can't work your way out of this one by solving it, making lists of pros and cons, or in any way working it out with your mind. Better to follow your heart, if you can find it. If you can't find it, just jump--your heart will start beating so fast there will be no mistake about where it is!
Re: A rambling for another rambling
Date: 2022-11-25 11:23 pm (UTC)1. If Colled is loss that could be a thousand things. It could be that divine relationship that brought me to this path in the first place. If so, that could be a problem. If what I want is to repair that connection and it is lost and never coming back, then I'm working toward something that I can never have, needing cooperation from something that will not work with me. The metaphor is no longer a tangle of yarn, but a brick wall and bashing head (it does feel more like that, admittedly).
2. Okay, there may have been a miscommunication here. I have problems finishing long term projects (and working on that in the areas where I can), but a 220 page book isn't a long term project. I have read most of his non fiction, some more than once. The egregore remains a mystery to me.
3. I did jump, heart didn't activate. If that's what we're waiting for my heart to tell me where it wants to go, this is doomed to failure. That's not tangled, that's amputated, I know I did it myself. I know when, why and just how good a job I did. What grew up in its place is something different, that functions different. Having examined it, I believe this is a limit that I simply must live with. I understand this part of my psyche well enough to have worked with it with some things that needed doing, framing issues in a way that I know it will respond to, and it can be a great ally when motivated, it can be very much like that pointed arrow you mentioned. Don't know how to frame spirituality so it will work.
I can only begin to want something if I reasonably think I can have it. When that connection was open, I did and knew what I wanted (just not how to get it); when I screwed up (by leaping without looking, running in the wrong direction with the wrong people and not realizing quick enough that everything I was doing was not working) and the door closed, and stayed closed despite every effort I made, that certainty is ending. I screwed up by not noticing the obvious signs I was going in the wrong direction, and now I see no signs from the universe at all, just a loop of action I made for myself that never leads anywhere but divination tells me to keep running. Or asks me to decide what I want while telling me I can't have that.
Re: A rambling for another rambling
Date: 2022-11-26 03:01 am (UTC)In that case I apologize. I don't know you at all except with what you said and that was no current practice and no further details so I did think you weren't doing anything about but I am glad to have been proven wrong!
I'm not at all sure what to suggest, you are welcome to ask a different related question using geomancy or Tarot which I also know if you'd like.
Health concerns are very important to look at, certainly. I hope you are better now! Sorry to hear it prevented you from doing your practices.
For me, a year with the three practices would be enough to determine if it is working, and you can also ask if that set of practices is right for you, they might not. That said, if it is something that is giving you stress, I would consider leaving them and working with spirituality some other way.
As for your first sentence, not at all. Ffordd as Judge means change, not doing the same thing you've been doing and failing.
1) Colled is in a specific position as mentioned on previous comments. You are also free to ask about the deity you are concerned about the door being closed.
2) I meant his magical program books such as LRM, CGD and DMH mainly. It might be different for me, when I read his books I am for at least a few days very clearly influenced by the material in more than the intellectual way.
3) Since I don't know your situation I won't try to insist, if you say it's lost then maybe it is. In that case, there isn't much I can suggest but certainly not having any practice isn't helping either. I don't know what else to suggest besides my interpretation of the reading on my previous comments.
4) That mindset effectively locks you out of attaining anything you aren't already close to getting if you aren't careful and we've already touched upon Coch and self deceptions above. I might be reading you wrong.
Sorry this hasn't been that helpful! English is a second language to me so that might have to do with it.
Re: A rambling for another rambling
Date: 2022-11-26 03:52 am (UTC)Perhaps I will take you up on a reading on the deity in question. If I haven't tried your patience too much. :) Whenever your next round is.
1. It has felt gone, and other people have said it was gone. They talk as though it were something very different from what I remember picking up on, so maybe they don't know what they're talking about. Or maybe it was self deception on my part. The initial contact happened, beyond that I've questioned it so much now I'm not sure anymore.
2. That mindset, like all of them, has its good points and bad. It was chosen because its benefits were sorely needed, its downsides have to be endured. It only locks me into things that can be achieved under my own effort alone, not requiring the assistance or approval of anyone else. It is dealing with others, their intentions and honesty (or lack thereof) where the extra caution is needed.
Again, I apologize. You haven't done anything wrong. I will think more on this, particularly ecosophia and what being there is supposed to be leading me to.
Re: A rambling for another rambling
Date: 2022-11-28 04:52 pm (UTC)1) I've been thinking for a while now to ask the people that come here to include some background in their queries, since my goal is more to help that to prove divination is right. It might take away some of the charm of hearing something in your life being repeated by the coins but I think it is more helpful to give meaning guidance.
I am also relatively new to geomancy, I do mostly tarot and I am getting the hang that Geomancy is super clearcut and doesn't elaborate on things you didn't asked about, whereas the Tarot many times even replies back with another question!
He he, it is not so much about my patience at all but about the message being heard. The next one will be posted today.
1) I am sorry to say that I feel inclined towards the latter of people not just knowing what they say. I am not an expert either but I see a lot of diviners not being able to tap into the reading and rather scramble with canned definitions to sound serious.
Regarding the deity in question. Deities are trascendental and timeless beings that know you better than you do so already knew what was going to happen after contact. Unless you were deliberately nasty or the deity being particularly picky, I wouldn't worry too much about it. But we can explore this further.
2) I like this, and I also like how our thread reflects the nature of your reading. Now, let's look for a third option that allows for the balance among the binaries we can find as themes and look for the third option that opposes the two (or flows between the two) and resolve it.
"It only locks me into things that can be achieved under my own effort alone, not requiring the assistance or approval of anyone else. It is dealing with others, their intentions and honesty (or lack thereof) where the extra caution is needed." - I would meditate and journal on the meaning and the reasons for you to have said that.
If I have to be bluntly honest, I would say, not from the reading but from myself, that you have to work towards weeding out what benefits you from the ecosophian community and what doesn't.