There seems to be a lot of self-deception to me in your comment. I am going to suggest the usual, just suck it up and do 15 minutes a day of spiritual practice, every single day for a year and don't stop no matter what. If the sky falls, you sit down and do your meditation; if Godzilla bangs at your door, you tell him to shut up and finish your ritual; if you just can't handle it anymore you give yourself a pat on the back for the good work and just finish reading that divination, even if half awake and with your fingers shaking from fear; if Satan presents to you in the middle of prayer, burn him to a crisp in a smokeless-and-ashless bang leaving no trace and just keep on praying. Just think it through very well, write about it, come again for a divination if you need to and then commit to it and do your level best to finish your plan, not for it to be perfect without changing your mind even if it is telling you that everything is wrong. If you fail, you just get up and try again.
1) Fair enough! In that case, I have no idea what Colled or "loss" could mean. Colled means loss in all its forms, from losing money to losing one's heart.
One other thing that I could mention is that spirituality isn't meant to fix one's life or emotional situations or what have you, it certainly can but in fact, many times it actually makes it worse for a while! I tried pushing further about the rest of the reading and the response I got was please just tell him to keep moving, it's movement not anything else, not the right or wrong this or that or the right or wrong ritual. I felt this with some force and seems to me you have a real tangle. This sort of things doesn't happen with spiritually weak people, so you have definitely something going on but I do get the sense that you have to do a lot of undoing. It is common for your experience to happen when one is in the liminal stage between one place and the other and it is as much an initiation as it is a test.
Yes, the hidden thing here is ecosophia, as that is where the Way of Points leads. What that means is that the WoP show cases the hidden forces of a situation. I am going to leave it up to you to figure out how. Let me know what you find out ;-)
For what it is worth I have found reading JMG books and finishing them to connect me way more strongly to the egregor of ecosophia than anything else while skipping the unbalanced parts.
2) Finishing entirely depends on you, if you can't finish things then the problem is not someone's curse, not a deity but you not being able to finish things, plain and simple and it seems the crossed conditions are coming as a response to the world or lack of contact with thereof.
3) I have worked with schizophrenics and one thing they taught me is that if one takes oneself too seriously and just don't start making choices among the opposites in your life and start making sense of the cognitive dissonance and double messages the we give to ourselves and receive from others and the world, it literally feels like your mind is being torn apart in half. The solution is meditation and reflection by taking your inputs and your response to those inputs apart with lots of patience.
Imagine I give you a ball of yarn that is all tangled up. Only two things (ha!) will happen if you start pulling and pushing in a disorganized way, either you make it an impossible to fix knot or you break it in pieces out of desperation. There is no other way, the third option is just that, grab one end and very slowly start pushing it in and out of the tangles until the whole thread is rectified once again.
Osho says this in his version of the Two of Swords, which he calls schizophrenia:
The person on this card brings a new twist to the old idea of "getting stuck between a rock and a hard place"! But we are in precisely this sort of situation when we get stuck in the indecisive and dualistic aspect of the mind. Should I let my arms go and fall head-first, or let my legs go and fall feet-first? Should I go here or there? Should I say yes or no? And whatever decision we make, we will always wonder if we should have decided the other way.
The only way out of this dilemma is, unfortunately, to let go of both at once. You can't work your way out of this one by solving it, making lists of pros and cons, or in any way working it out with your mind. Better to follow your heart, if you can find it. If you can't find it, just jump--your heart will start beating so fast there will be no mistake about where it is!
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Date: 2022-11-24 07:30 pm (UTC)There seems to be a lot of self-deception to me in your comment. I am going to suggest the usual, just suck it up and do 15 minutes a day of spiritual practice, every single day for a year and don't stop no matter what. If the sky falls, you sit down and do your meditation; if Godzilla bangs at your door, you tell him to shut up and finish your ritual; if you just can't handle it anymore you give yourself a pat on the back for the good work and just finish reading that divination, even if half awake and with your fingers shaking from fear; if Satan presents to you in the middle of prayer, burn him to a crisp in a smokeless-and-ashless bang leaving no trace and just keep on praying. Just think it through very well, write about it, come again for a divination if you need to and then commit to it and do your level best to finish your plan, not for it to be perfect without changing your mind even if it is telling you that everything is wrong. If you fail, you just get up and try again.
1) Fair enough! In that case, I have no idea what Colled or "loss" could mean. Colled means loss in all its forms, from losing money to losing one's heart.
One other thing that I could mention is that spirituality isn't meant to fix one's life or emotional situations or what have you, it certainly can but in fact, many times it actually makes it worse for a while! I tried pushing further about the rest of the reading and the response I got was please just tell him to keep moving, it's movement not anything else, not the right or wrong this or that or the right or wrong ritual. I felt this with some force and seems to me you have a real tangle. This sort of things doesn't happen with spiritually weak people, so you have definitely something going on but I do get the sense that you have to do a lot of undoing. It is common for your experience to happen when one is in the liminal stage between one place and the other and it is as much an initiation as it is a test.
Yes, the hidden thing here is ecosophia, as that is where the Way of Points leads. What that means is that the WoP show cases the hidden forces of a situation. I am going to leave it up to you to figure out how. Let me know what you find out ;-)
For what it is worth I have found reading JMG books and finishing them to connect me way more strongly to the egregor of ecosophia than anything else while skipping the unbalanced parts.
2) Finishing entirely depends on you, if you can't finish things then the problem is not someone's curse, not a deity but you not being able to finish things, plain and simple and it seems the crossed conditions are coming as a response to the world or lack of contact with thereof.
3) I have worked with schizophrenics and one thing they taught me is that if one takes oneself too seriously and just don't start making choices among the opposites in your life and start making sense of the cognitive dissonance and double messages the we give to ourselves and receive from others and the world, it literally feels like your mind is being torn apart in half. The solution is meditation and reflection by taking your inputs and your response to those inputs apart with lots of patience.
Imagine I give you a ball of yarn that is all tangled up. Only two things (ha!) will happen if you start pulling and pushing in a disorganized way, either you make it an impossible to fix knot or you break it in pieces out of desperation. There is no other way, the third option is just that, grab one end and very slowly start pushing it in and out of the tangles until the whole thread is rectified once again.
Osho says this in his version of the Two of Swords, which he calls schizophrenia:
The person on this card brings a new twist to the old idea of "getting stuck between a rock and a hard place"! But we are in precisely this sort of situation when we get stuck in the indecisive and dualistic aspect of the mind. Should I let my arms go and fall head-first, or let my legs go and fall feet-first? Should I go here or there? Should I say yes or no? And whatever decision we make, we will always wonder if we should have decided the other way. The only way out of this dilemma is, unfortunately, to let go of both at once. You can't work your way out of this one by solving it, making lists of pros and cons, or in any way working it out with your mind. Better to follow your heart, if you can find it. If you can't find it, just jump--your heart will start beating so fast there will be no mistake about where it is!