Hmm! This is very intriguing and seems very insightful.
I think your reading of the situation (7 of Pentacles) is spot on. I am indeed enjoying what magic/spirituality has done for me over the past few months, and I'm eager for more. This is an area where I've identified a personal issue: for most of my life, the things I've pursued and been rewarded for being good at have been analytical/intellectual. Such pursuits can often be accelerated through cleverness or by grasping the principles invovled. I only recently recognized that I have struggled my whole life with things that you can't accelerate through better understanding/cleverness - physical fitness, dealing with significant emotions, learning a craft, and so forth. I have been struggling to remind myself that magic is one of those things where I just have to put in the work, and that it will take time - there won't be an "aha!" moment that lets me skip any of the work. So the reassurance that the fruits are there, but that they need time to ripen is very helpful.
As for the others, and the advice, that is interesting. I had not intended anything drastic, but the idea "is this what I should be doing in the long run?" has occurred to me. Perhaps I need to focus more on what I can impart to my students and how my spiritual practice might inform that (without pushing any of my own beliefs or the like, of course).
One other factor that might be relevant given the greater spiritual focus of your updated reading: my wife has expressed some unease with my spiritual path of the last few months and years. She fears that I may be growing in different directions than she is, and what that might mean for us. I have reassured her that I don't intend that or see it going that way, but I wonder if the advice to pay attention to the linkages between day-to-day matters and my spiritual path might have some relevance there as well.
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Date: 2021-09-09 05:51 pm (UTC)I think your reading of the situation (7 of Pentacles) is spot on. I am indeed enjoying what magic/spirituality has done for me over the past few months, and I'm eager for more. This is an area where I've identified a personal issue: for most of my life, the things I've pursued and been rewarded for being good at have been analytical/intellectual. Such pursuits can often be accelerated through cleverness or by grasping the principles invovled. I only recently recognized that I have struggled my whole life with things that you can't accelerate through better understanding/cleverness - physical fitness, dealing with significant emotions, learning a craft, and so forth. I have been struggling to remind myself that magic is one of those things where I just have to put in the work, and that it will take time - there won't be an "aha!" moment that lets me skip any of the work. So the reassurance that the fruits are there, but that they need time to ripen is very helpful.
As for the others, and the advice, that is interesting. I had not intended anything drastic, but the idea "is this what I should be doing in the long run?" has occurred to me. Perhaps I need to focus more on what I can impart to my students and how my spiritual practice might inform that (without pushing any of my own beliefs or the like, of course).
One other factor that might be relevant given the greater spiritual focus of your updated reading: my wife has expressed some unease with my spiritual path of the last few months and years. She fears that I may be growing in different directions than she is, and what that might mean for us. I have reassured her that I don't intend that or see it going that way, but I wonder if the advice to pay attention to the linkages between day-to-day matters and my spiritual path might have some relevance there as well.