I just wanted to follow up and tell you that so far so good. I have seen that it depends on the type of substance too...being a nurse who occasionally works night shift. I can say I'm certainly addicted to caffeine, but it doesn't seem to have the demon in it that ETOH has at least for me.
I can also say that with my new clarity of mind, I've not since been attracted to the thing nor do I find the "fun" that I'm missing all that fun. I'd much prefer to progress on the things that have taken more importance...playing my instrument, lifting, and cooking with my husband.
Before I tried to moderate, but now that I'm not using alcohol other than in a wine reduction sauce, it doesn't have the same threat over me. Its like when I married my husband who already has children and a vasectomy. The threat of pregnancy was thus removed (I love his children, but I don't want to become pregnant myself) and the threat around sex just melted away. With alcohol or with pregnancy, it seems that I do psychologically better once the "threat" is removed.
Regardless, I know this is the very beginning of my journey.
I want to thank you for hearing me throughout this process
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Date: 2023-06-30 11:30 pm (UTC)I can also say that with my new clarity of mind, I've not since been attracted to the thing nor do I find the "fun" that I'm missing all that fun. I'd much prefer to progress on the things that have taken more importance...playing my instrument, lifting, and cooking with my husband.
Before I tried to moderate, but now that I'm not using alcohol other than in a wine reduction sauce, it doesn't have the same threat over me. Its like when I married my husband who already has children and a vasectomy. The threat of pregnancy was thus removed (I love his children, but I don't want to become pregnant myself) and the threat around sex just melted away. With alcohol or with pregnancy, it seems that I do psychologically better once the "threat" is removed.
Regardless, I know this is the very beginning of my journey.
I want to thank you for hearing me throughout this process