Thank you very much for this. Have never done a remote reading before, the accuracy achieved is pretty astonishing. Will address each card in the same order as you.
The Moon - this one was dead on, am in the midst of some big changes indeed. If I'm not mistaken my Saturn return is just beginning. Was making a living as a musician in NYC before everything shut down and all the gigs disappeared. Have since been staying with family in another state nearby. Have decided I don't want to move back to the city ever (reading our friend Mr. Greer has not been a negligible influence on that decision), but also am grappling with feelings of maybe needing to leave my life as a musician behind. This is a difficult decision as it's been something I've been doing for a long time (my entire adult life, really), yet I can't seem to escape the feeing that it's time to let it go and return to some parts of myself that had been neglected in New York. Also, after having some amazing initial experiences in practical work I have recently started down the path to initiation in a magical order. More on that in a second.
7 Swords - I have been telling myself I can continue in my new direction while still keeping the musical engagements that I value most and just get some other side job, but this seems like perhaps I may be spreading myself too thin, and, as you have pointed out, this card would suggest it is merely an attempt to procrastinate the changes I can feel coming, and not, as you have also said, a permanent solution. If I'm not mistaken, the golden dawn called this card "lord of shortened force", which would be an apt addition to what's been said already: hard to walk forward with full force when you're looking behind you.
Fortune - not very sure quite yet what the coming positive change is that this indicates, except for the joining-the-order thing I mentioned earlier. I will say that everything you said about feeling a change coming and it being here now is right on the money, gigs are starting to come back and I'm starting now to need to make a real and final decision about what I'll be doing musically in the future. On the more positive side I think it speaks probably to a future with the order or with magic in general. Could also pertain to finding a new place to live, which I have been doing as I get ready to find a place of my own somewhere. as far as pertaining to "the thing that disturbs me", it also I think has to do with the resurfacing of lots of lost elements of myself that I had sort of buried or pushed aside in order to focus on being a musician - elements that recent magical practice has brought quite strongly back into my awareness. That, in and of itself, has been a beautiful thing but also has brought up some forgotten traumas from way back. Which sort of leads to the next card
Six of Cups - "looking back at what made you tick before" - this is really hitting. Much of that has just been reading, in particular esoteric/occult literature but also just using that part of my brain more in general. Also, when I was very very young I was super interested in alchemy and I have begun to remember asking my parents for books on magic and whatnot, and in my late teens I can remember becoming extremely interested in Dante, particularly the divine comedy (and have now come to find out about all the Rosicrucian symbology in that work). Something about the way you phrased that also reminded me of what I had mentioned up above about magic bringing forth all these old feelings and interests. As far as accepting help from a person, I will have to see what comes up about that, but in terms of accepting help from the forces of childhood interest and passion etc, this is speaking to me big time.
Page of pentacles - "perhaps this new beginning has roots in the past and this change could the force for it to bare fruit" - I think I've probably already said enough about recent recovered interests and orders for this to make sense. Been feeling also that perhaps one of the reasons my "happy medium" strategy won't work is that I have to let go fully of the past in order to receive what's just up ahead.
I find it interesting that it doesn't seem that I need to take action, at first this doesn't seem quite right but that could just be internal pressure to "fix" the situation instead of, as you say, study, understand and integrate it.
I really appreciate you taking the time, also I love this spread, never encountered it before. Thanks again!!
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Re: Reading
Date: 2021-02-25 05:55 pm (UTC)The Moon - this one was dead on, am in the midst of some big changes indeed. If I'm not mistaken my Saturn return is just beginning. Was making a living as a musician in NYC before everything shut down and all the gigs disappeared. Have since been staying with family in another state nearby. Have decided I don't want to move back to the city ever (reading our friend Mr. Greer has not been a negligible influence on that decision), but also am grappling with feelings of maybe needing to leave my life as a musician behind. This is a difficult decision as it's been something I've been doing for a long time (my entire adult life, really), yet I can't seem to escape the feeing that it's time to let it go and return to some parts of myself that had been neglected in New York. Also, after having some amazing initial experiences in practical work I have recently started down the path to initiation in a magical order. More on that in a second.
7 Swords - I have been telling myself I can continue in my new direction while still keeping the musical engagements that I value most and just get some other side job, but this seems like perhaps I may be spreading myself too thin, and, as you have pointed out, this card would suggest it is merely an attempt to procrastinate the changes I can feel coming, and not, as you have also said, a permanent solution. If I'm not mistaken, the golden dawn called this card "lord of shortened force", which would be an apt addition to what's been said already: hard to walk forward with full force when you're looking behind you.
Fortune - not very sure quite yet what the coming positive change is that this indicates, except for the joining-the-order thing I mentioned earlier. I will say that everything you said about feeling a change coming and it being here now is right on the money, gigs are starting to come back and I'm starting now to need to make a real and final decision about what I'll be doing musically in the future. On the more positive side I think it speaks probably to a future with the order or with magic in general. Could also pertain to finding a new place to live, which I have been doing as I get ready to find a place of my own somewhere. as far as pertaining to "the thing that disturbs me", it also I think has to do with the resurfacing of lots of lost elements of myself that I had sort of buried or pushed aside in order to focus on being a musician - elements that recent magical practice has brought quite strongly back into my awareness. That, in and of itself, has been a beautiful thing but also has brought up some forgotten traumas from way back. Which sort of leads to the next card
Six of Cups - "looking back at what made you tick before" - this is really hitting. Much of that has just been reading, in particular esoteric/occult literature but also just using that part of my brain more in general. Also, when I was very very young I was super interested in alchemy and I have begun to remember asking my parents for books on magic and whatnot, and in my late teens I can remember becoming extremely interested in Dante, particularly the divine comedy (and have now come to find out about all the Rosicrucian symbology in that work). Something about the way you phrased that also reminded me of what I had mentioned up above about magic bringing forth all these old feelings and interests. As far as accepting help from a person, I will have to see what comes up about that, but in terms of accepting help from the forces of childhood interest and passion etc, this is speaking to me big time.
Page of pentacles - "perhaps this new beginning has roots in the past and this change could the force for it to bare fruit" - I think I've probably already said enough about recent recovered interests and orders for this to make sense. Been feeling also that perhaps one of the reasons my "happy medium" strategy won't work is that I have to let go fully of the past in order to receive what's just up ahead.
I find it interesting that it doesn't seem that I need to take action, at first this doesn't seem quite right but that could just be internal pressure to "fix" the situation instead of, as you say, study, understand and integrate it.
I really appreciate you taking the time, also I love this spread, never encountered it before. Thanks again!!