I wanted to follow up on this and tell you that I have successfully given up the bottle since the last I spoke with you. With a combination of picking up my magical practice and therapy, I've come to the realization that a lot of my underlying desire is to run from undiagnosed Munchausen by proxy in my childhood. It's been a rather strange realization but I see I don't have to run from it or inadvertently live up to being sick like my mother envisioned for me.

You know it's interesting about the father figure because growing up. I find my husband's so healing because he's exact opposite of my father who is complete.Push over and let my mom miss diagnosed me and put me on a ton of I know very damaging medications. I now have a strong and psychologically healthy masculine energy in my life (my husband)that has a strong catylist on my healing journey.